4 months

sweet baby Aj was 4 months old on monday. i have been meaning to blog, but i have such a hard time finding time to blog some weeks. you moms who are so good at it need to help me. maybe i just am so bad at managing my time with a baby. do give me a few points for being married to a coach who is very much away from me this time of year. so, i am so exhausted when Aj sleeps that i sleep too. no blogging time.

i am working most of this week and adam is getting a taste of motherhood. he definately gives moms the cudos for taking care of a baby all day. thank you sweetie! and he understands why my time alone or with other girls is so important. i like adam on spring break.

the last month has been interesting. i returned to work!!! God definately blessed me with a job i love, making it so much easier to be away from my baby. i am in a new area,NICU (neonatal intensive care unit). being around babies crying all day and new moms helps my hormones while away from my baby. i get to counsel families loosing their baby, and rejoice with those who get to take their premie home for the first time in several months. the emotions are far between. people think that the NICU is a sad place, but it really is a place of miracles. and i get to be apart of it.

then i go home with this renewed energy for aj. i look forward to my days of and try to do many things with aj. my favorite is having him sleep on me for at least one nap during the day. good cuddle time. then we work on nap times in the crib for the other naps. aj is changing so fast. he actually will play with me. he giggles when you play with his hands and feet, and he grabs toys to go to the mouth. those starring days were tough, when the baby just sits and stares. i went crazy a few times.

i was not the normal girl who dreamed of having a baby. i dreamed of KIDS. kids i can play and talk with and develop relationships with. the baby cuddling time is precious and i did love it, but i have been ready to play. some people do not understand this, but it is me.

one other thing, i officially became a mom with the short hair. i cut it yesterday. it is just on my shoulders, but big for me. they say all new moms chop the hair. does it count if most moms do it for the convenience and i did it for something new. i still loved taking time to do my long hair with a baby watching baby einstein (thank you tays and mrs. gene) in the bedroom. i have just had long hair for several years and needed something new. okay!

after work, i get to see my friend from grad school. she was my best friend while in south carolina and i love her so much. she had a baby boy one month after me and they call him aj. i feel like i just saw her last month, but it has been 4 years. i will let you know all about it!